This is something I've had to do over the past couple of years, the more I educated myself about anxiety the more I came to terms with the fact that this was me and this is how I was always going to be.
Before Christmas I went through another small patch of anxiety, I couldn't sleep properly, I was having panic attacks and I just wasn't myself. The first thing I said to myself was I need to see someone and get to the root of my problems once and for all. I booked an appointment with the Goldsmith clinic and met with the director, she was so lovely and went through my history and asked questions about how I was feeling and recommended a therapist to see.
I was quiet skeptical as I'd seen three other therapists in the past but never really gained anything from my therapy sessions. After the first session I knew this therapist was going to help. As hard as it is to open up to someone about your past and all that you have gone through it is somehow relieving. She made me see why I was anxiety and why I had been as a child, she also reassured me that I had ever right to be the way I am.
My therapy finished up just before Christmas and I felt like a new person, I had come to terms with why I was the way I am and I learned so much about myself. It was at that point when I finally knew that this was the way I was programmed and this was the way I was going to stay. I have learned ways in which to cope with stress better and I am never too hard on myself.
Being anxious is normal, most of us will experience anxiety is some shape or form, sometimes we don't even realise we are suffering. Our mental health is so important and one thing we should take so much care of. Each week we need to check in with ourselves and see are we doing ok, and remember it is ok not to feel ok.
It is so important to talk to people and if you don't feel comfortable opening up for family or friends I would highly recommend speaking to a trained professional. They have heard a lot worse then what you will tell them and they know exactly what advice to give you.
Here is the website of the clinic I attended http://www.thegoldsmithclinic.ie, it was amazing and the best therapy I've received.
I hope this helps, always remember to mind your mind and its ok not to feel ok sometimes.
Love Grace xox